Having Chrysantha chase me around the kitchen island, coffee dates, lounging on the couch, her covering up with my blanket, watching her excitement with all the Christmas lights and decorations, these are a few of my favorite recent memories.
I am so excited to be pregnant with another baby. I know that Chrysantha is going to be a great big sister. She is so loving and caring. She likes taking care of others. I’m excited to watch her grow in her new role. But until that time comes, I am purposing to enjoy the moments we have with just the two of us. I want to make the most of the time we have before our new baby comes. I want to be intentional about making memories and pouring love into Chrysantha. I want to continue to build her foundation of love. I am so thankful that I get to be her Momma. She fills my heart with joy everyday. Her sweet kisses and her heart melting smile make the rough times much better. She loves me so well. I am trying to love her better.
Being pregnant and mothering a toddler is not easy. I’m a lot more tired than I was the first time. But, I do need to be mindful of how that is affecting me. Of course I need to have grace with myself. I am certainly not perfect. When I find myself getting frustrated, I try to stop and refocus myself. God is certainly my strength during this time.
I am purposing to give Chrysantha opportunities to learn and grow. Sometimes it would be soooo much easier to just keep her from new things. But, I am raising her to be independent. This means that shopping trips take 20 times longer. I let her walk around and give her opportunities to learn how to listen and follow directions. I give her the freedom to explore and look around. I constantly have to repeat myself, but she is learning. She knows how to come back to me now. She knows how to stay next to the car when I’m putting something away.
I’m certainly not saying that my way of doing things is the right way, but it’s working for us. It’s exhausting, but I’m seeing the fruits of my labors. I hope that by teaching her these things now, we will have a much smoother time when didimeimei (younger sibling) comes.