4 Months

It’s hard to believe that 4 months have already passed by. In the day to day of being a Mom it’s so easy wish away this time. I look forward to sleep one day. I look forward to not being needed constantly, to being able to let my daughter occupy herself for just a short while. Even though the days and nights can be hard, I don’t really wish away this time. I love my sweet baby snuggles. It’s one of the best feelings in the world to be needed so deeply by another. And she loves so unconditionally.

It’s been fun getting to know my daughter and to watch her personality shine through. I love how she looks at me with this crazy eyes and mouth wide open raised eyebrow look when I make her fly. And I love how she tries to fit both hands in her mouth and “talk” at the same time. I’m getting all teary-eyed just thinking about this.

Our lives have changed so much in just 4 short months. Her schedule is constantly changing. At 6 weeks, we got a nice routine and rhythm going. We had an eat wake sleep schedule. Then about 4 weeks ago, things slowly changed. Then a few days ago we were getting good sleep again. But of course last night, to celebrate turning 4 months, she decided to be fussy and wake up every 1.5 hours. And lately we’ve been on an eat wake eat sleep schedule.

Though I don’t enjoy my sleepless nights, I do enjoy being Momma to such a precious baby girl. She makes me laugh and smile constantly. But, I have to be careful not to laugh too loud, because then she cries 😉

Learn As You Go

Parenting is a very much learn as you go kind of thing. Sure, you can read books and “prepare”, but on the job training is reality.

My baby is constantly changing and growing. She keeps challenging what I thought I knew.

What I have learned though is that I can’t put her in a box. Just because something worked once or even 20 times, doesn’t mean that it will always work. And usually I *know* what I can do to help her, but I get stubborn and just want her to do things my way. It really works better if I just do what I should do. It just makes both of us frustrated when I try to force her to do something that she doesn’t want to do, e.g. nap in her crib.

Parenting is a daily adventure! 🙂